What made you stop being an addict?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Isn't it ironic people always talk about how much women hate Donald Trump, when almost any of them would marry him if they could? What he said in the 2005 Billy Bush video, almost every woman would share the sentiment if it got them his lifestyle.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

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Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

Who's your celebrity crush?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

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So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

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Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Can people who have never met you tell if you are a covert narcissist?

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

What do bad boys know that nice guys don't?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

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This was February 2019.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

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It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

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I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Why do older siblings always hate younger siblings?

Just keep trying

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

How do you say "I don't speak French yet, but I hope to speak it well one day. It would be a pleasure to learn French with you. Would you like to teach me French?" in French? Could you add audio?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

And I can also talk to them now.

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Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

I did it in my administrator's office.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Read that again ☝️

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.